Do looks matter?

Yes. I guess. But there are so many beautful people. After a while, don't you just want a beautiful person that makes you laugh?

I think today's my best friend's Bday. I am never sure, because she follows the lunar calendar. It always confuses me. i need to call her husband to find out.

so broke

My checking accounts hit negative balance last week!!

I need to watch my $$ closer.

Gridweek Conference

I am tired.

Road trip

I love road trips, even when it's just 2 hrs long. It's a great way to get to know your friends more. Today Mike, Amy, Nicole and I went to Cincinnati together. It's mainly because we wanted to get Nicole's Mac book to the apple store. We wanted to keep her company... but lucky enough, we ran into Ocktober Fest at Fountain Square. Good day.

Anyway, one game that I love play is Ask a Question to the Group. Okay.. I made up the name. I don't have a name for it. The game is to take turn asking a question to the group, and the whole group would answer the question honestly (including the person who asked the question).

One queston I asked is what is the one personality trait you dispise/hate/dislike most?

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I wanted to write more, but I am too tired. I guess I'll just leave it at this.

One way or another, my friends told me that they hate stupidity. I actually don't. I actually dislike people that are smart and nice, but are not genuine and with a hidden agenda. I dislike people that have alternative motive when they are being nice to you.

Kids

Yesterday, two friends told me that they don't want to have kids ever. I never really thought about this before. I guess I just always thought that having kids is just something you do. Can you not have kids?

For my whole life, I've been subsconsciously trying to gain my parents' approval. And probably having kids is part of it.

I thought about it. Do I really want kids? I don't even have time for pets. I am not eve responsible for myself. How can I be responsible for another human being?

Then again, I did have dreams about having a kid and I remember vividly that I loved that kid sooo much. (I don't know why I dreamed about that. It was only in college too... Maybe I was afraid of getting pregnant?)

I also have so much that I want to do in this world. I guess if I had a kid, I would feel like he or she can do all the things that I might have missed. But then again, that would just be a cope out. Why can't I do all that I want to do? I don't want to make my kid to finish my dreams and aspirations. I want to do it myself.

I need to leave this open ended, because I don't know what my decision is yet.